To all my relations ... I write this blog post in english, for it's story was made in english. And in this way, the story's many authors will hopefully enjoy this post too.
A few days ago I returned from a 10-day camp in Smolnik, in Pohorje, Ruše, Slovenia. We lived and worked at a youth hostel that is mostly vacated by groups doing meditation, shamanic journeys and alike.
Our camp was dedicated to freeing the body with various technics, mostly theater of the opressed, contact improvisation dance, yoga, shamanic teachings;
Instead of writing the story in any order, I will just share some insights. The story of more than 30 men and women in 10 days is epic anyway. It belongs to the unspoken or Peter Jackson :)
- It's amazing how fast a relationship builds, if we let our bodies play
- A ball loves it when it is up in the air. It was made for that. But it also loves it when it is held in hand (Nella).
- At the beginning of a workshop, a verbal introduction is very comforting. While facilitator speaks, others can enjoy the trance of the words, check out other participants, the room they find themselves in, and make general observations, comments to self, they can relax and tune in to the group.
- It's not a challenge to do it big (expressive excercises). We have this idea, that our interaction has to grow fast and be big and intense. It is perhaps easier to start subtle and grow slow.
- Try the levels of speaking: speaking from the head, speaking from the heart and speaking from the guts. But above all, try speaking with no words!
- Blindfolded trance dance. One doesn't see (know) the feedback of others (et vice versa) and therefore there is far less to process.
- [short story] This one day, I found myself in the kitchen, happy music in the background, a few fellow participants preparing lunch for all of us, a happy warm vibe filling the place. I stood in awe, my heart like a butterfly. Then the words jumped out of me: 'this is just like in the old days, when we we did exctasy at parties!' One of the cooks smiled knowlingly and replied: "Yes. It's love."
- I could be a drama queen. But now I'm just a queen (Signe).
- Energy of courage can also be felt and shared withing the group. It is thus easier to become more courageous, when you share your challenges as a member of a group.
- Being free to love: In this place, there is no room for jealousy (did you know that there is a word lousy in jealousy? ;).
- I'll just let the flow be what the flow is (Mohammed).
After the camp the group of 30 start moving from Smolnik back to Ljubljana. Some left immediately, some stayed for a couple more days. I hosted 5 people and another 10 stayed at other Slovenia friends during this weekend.
So many goodbyes. Shit, man. The group was dissapearing back into those that comprised it.
Today, the last of them left my house. It was good to have a friend to reflect on the afterburn feelings and thoughts.
Mohammed said: "I feel like the community body is gone, and now I have this individual body. And the change is like cold shower. It hurts to be again on my own, without community body."
The camp with its workshop was intense. But the time between workshops was THE workshop of them all. I have never participated in a creation of such a loving, kind, open-hearted, gentle group of people. We built a community, a safe-zone where we could all transform and transcend our individual obstacles toward more freedom. Our bodies were our main vehicles. And the souls were singing.
The river is flowing, flowing and growing,
the river is flowing, on to the sea ...
Namaste, brothers and sisters!